Offred apologizes to the reader for the way she is telling her story, feeling that it is painful, and disjointed. She wishes that it made her seem like she is more active, as well as less hesitant. Somehow, she hopes that other people will hear her story, and she will also get a chance to hear stories of other people, and imagines an audience. She begins to talk about how she continued seeing Nick without Serena’s permission. Sometimes, she went to see Nick right after she was with the Commander. She describes a typical encounter with Nick, going as so far as to say they always have sex immediately and talk later. She trusts Nick, and as such tells him almost everything, refraining from talking about Luke. Although she knows that this could be a dangerous thing to do, she feels like she has made him into “an idol.” Most of the time, Ofglen encourages Offred to find out critical information concerning the Commander for the resistance but Offred is mostly distracted, thinking about Nick (Atwood, 2004).